My mom got married at 19 and had her last 4th child at the age of 29. So when she started to realise that younger age wasn't on my side anymore, she started to freak out. Everyday when I skype with her, she would tell me the most boring story about a lady who's getting old but had no grandchildren yet. Really mom, you're not even 50 yet.
Anyway, in the end the daughter gave in and planned a child to be conceived during spring. Happily the old lady will be having her first ever grandchild in January and they all live happily ever after.
My first trimester was no joke. I wonder why do they call it "morning sickness" when you're feeling sick the whole day. I didn't vomit or anything. It's just I had extreme nauseas the whole day. Yuck! I couldn't smell anything, I feel irritated and random street people annoyed the crap out of me. The only persons I want to be around most of the time is my husband and my family. My digestive system was haywire and most of the time I was in exhaustion. You should've seen me. 10 steps and I already feel like sleeping at the pavement. I was like a baby. Fairuz laughed at me despite he's the one who made me this way. What a nerve. And the ironic thing was, I don't want any kid to be around me. They are just too tired to watch. Now that scares me. My maternity instinct is yet to convince me.
But now that I'm 4 months along. Hello 2nd trimester and goodbye 1st trimester. I now can breath. I've started back my work and I feel productive. Other than my tummy's getting bigger, I feel healthy. There's a reason I don't blog much for July. I sleep most of the time and I don't have a camera with me. My last one got stolen and my compact just ran out of battery. And the charger? Got stolen! So remind me to buy a new camera before the baby comes. For now all I have is this crap photo taken from my phone
12 April, Nuchal scan. Check for Down Syndrome Risk.
In the UK, you'll only get a chance of twice to scan the baby in your tummy for your whole pregnancy duration. To have a private scan in a private clinic would cost you a fortune. And most people don't actually do it. I don't know how dating pregnancy works in Msia but here our midwife took care of us the whole time and we never see the doctor unless there's any complication. So far I don't have any. Alhamdulillah.
The picture above is my first scan date. The baby is 13 weeks old. And has a probability of 1/20000 risk of down syndrome. Healthy and was jumping around when we first see it on screen. Fairuz was so happy I think he cried a bit. I just feel weird that there's actually a living thing inside of me although I don't feel any flutter yet.
Now where's that maternity instinct in me? Hello?? Anybody home?