When I finished my master I had no intention whatsoever to tie a knot. It has always been that way back in those days when I did my undergraduate in Uniten. I was an ambitions young hot blooded girl. I'm willing to work hard and to travel alot even if it mean I have to stay in a desert. I'll have my own studio apartment and my own car before I'm settled. Typically like others, Married and with kids, was the last thing I had in mind.
like many others my age. I wanted a job. Not just a job. I wanted a career. The best career that my degree can offer. Of course I expect that. I work hard to get good grades and half of my CV was filled with volunteering work. Who wouldn't love life at that time.
In my final years, I sent my applications to all companies I desired to work in. Being a choosy person I didn't apply to any random companies. I applied to only a few. Very a few that I know my chances of getting in was slim. The demand was high. The interview is intimidating and the competition was tough especially for local graduates. And interview, wasn't my speciality. English was never my fluency.
It wasn't long after I finished my last exam. Mom and dad decided continuing Master was crucial and the only way I could be different. I know I wanted to do Master but it wasn't that soon. But when I was offered a scholarship. I decided to went for Australia. It was afterall the closest country to home and I heard Australian weather is better than the oh so gloomy UK.
At that time I had a boyfriend. Shawn. Whom at that time I adore and love with all my heart. I was convinced I'd never loved anyone like Shawn. Because Imperial at that time has closed their application, I was offered to do my MSc in King's College. Dad knew me so well that I can't resist a city like London to live in. But UK is 13 hours far from home and Shawn refused to follow me. A long distance relationship was the last thing on my mind. It's callousing. There goes my dillemma.
Shawn was one of my bestfriends. He's soft spoken. Hardworking and love by all his friends. Despite my loathing experienced with my ex He was still nice to me. The only one that was nice in fact. Most of you would agree its easy to possess a girl's heart. But Shawn's lack of communications wasn't helping with the long distance thing. Our relationship wasn't very healthy. I understand that it's literally true communications is the most important in a relationship, it's not about just love anymore especially long distances. Though he did tried he still refused to acknowledge that he can change. I started to doubt happily ever after with Shawn. 3 months, despite he being the best thing that ever happen in my life, things were over between us. I was devastated.
In January I started to get very close with Fairuz. Fairuz, on the other hand was a man of his principle. He had always knew what he wanted and how he would want his life will be. He's very confident. Just like his dad he has his own way. He's a one time only man. Tell him once, he'll listen. Tell him twice, he's annoyed. Tell him thrice He'll rebeled. Fairuz was an easy to understand type. He'll tell me what he doesn't like and he'll let it go. In some sort. We are alike. But most of all, Fairuz is very good in communications. When he love he'll show his passionate. Just the way a girl likes it.
Weird, because of that. Both Fairuz and me have broke our little own life lists. Marriage is upgraded. A mutual understanding that marriage is what is the best for us. We like each other. We're old enough to live independantly and make a decision. We can still have our ambition and career. And we only need to worry about kids when we're ready. And the fact that he's willing to change his life plan for me convinced me that he'll take really good care of me.
I won't say this if this wasn't true. Sometimes I feel that God works in his funny way. At first I didn't get scholarship to London as the Government is cutting down sending students to the UK. And it's almost impossible for Fairuz to get a job here in UK due to the economy status. Just because we decided to get marry earlier than we plan, miraculously I got the scholarship and Fairuz was offered a great career here in the same country. There you go. Getting married was the best decision and choosing Fairuz was the bestest thing that ever happen in my life. Literally.
I guess that's what people called it fate.